제리야ㅡ추석이래.오늘인지내일인지모르겠지만그런가보다해.관심없어서..추석이든뭐든제리가없으니아무생각없네ㅡ아무래도엄마땜에힘들어하는사람들이많은것같아.엄마가늘우울해하고쳐져있어서.그렇다고억지로즐거운척할수도없고.차라리그냥가만놔뒀으면좋겠는데예전과달리대하니부담스럽기만해ㅡ울애기생각도맘껏못하겠고..제리야울끼리해피추석할까?그래,그러자ㅡ내딸함께있음엄마랑맛난것도마니먹을텐데.속상하네ㅡ며칠동안울애기한테쓴편지거의다옮겼어.이제내일이면다될것같아.앞으로는엄마손글씨로직접써야지ㅡ오래오래간직할수있도록.제리야,엄마가울애기마니마니사랑하는거항상기억하고있어ㅡ엄마두울애기가엄마마니사랑해준거절대잊지않고너무너무고마워ㅡ내딸,항상행복하고.사랑해아가ㅡ편안한밤보내ㅡ

  아가ㅡ어제는엄마가안부인사도못하고..건강하게잘지내고있지?벌써구월도하순으로접어들고있어.울애기간지도어느덧여섯달째..시간은무심하게열심히제갈길가고엄마는별로달라지는게없네ㅡ울애기보낸슬픔,그리움..여전해..낮엔아직덥구나ㅡ이러다갑자기쌀쌀해지겠지.늘그랬듯-제리야,엄마는울애기가마니보고싶다.항상-제리도알고있을까?아무것도모르고있을까..울애기가엄마보고있다면울애긴엄마가씩씩하게즐겁게사는모습보길원하겠지?아는데,그래야울애기도안심하고잘쉴꺼라는거아는데그게잘안돼네..너무큰부분을잃어버려서..미안해아가,엄마기운낼께ㅡ제리가지켜보고있다생각하고.울애기위해서라도즐겁게지내려애써볼께ㅡ내딸,울애기도날마다행복하게지내ㅡ울애기엄마랑내일또만나.편안한밤보내고,사랑해내딸-

  사랑하는아가ㅡ우리애기엄마말다듣고있구나.오늘아침눈떴다가다시잠든사이울애기꿈꿨네ㅡ꿈이라는걸알았을때너무나슬펐지만잠시나마울애기모습봐서정말행복했어.아프지않은것같

  아가ㅡ저녘은맛있는거먹었니?엄마두밥먹구이제좀쉬는중이야.좀바쁜하루였네.오전에는집보러왔었구,울애기한테쓴편지들좀정리해놓구장도보러갔다와서대청소도하구ㅡㄱㅡ렇게보냈어.울애긴뭐하며지냈을까?재밌게놀았니?아무리바쁘게뭔가를해도가슴한켠엔항상제리생각이떠나질않아ㅡ지금울애기만있음얼마나좋을까하는..세상에어떤걸로도채워지지않는게있구나ㅡ제리가떠난빈자리..아가ㅡ우리애기본지오래됐네.꿈속에서말야ㅡ엄마잊은건아니지?울애기모습한번보여주지않으련?오늘밤제리꿈꾸면너무행복할것같아ㅡ내딸,엄마가울애기한테마니고마워하는거알고있지?마니마니사랑하는건물론이고ㅡ그모든마음평생간직하고살께.내딸다시만나는그날까지ㅡ사랑해아가야ㅡ

  제리야,엄마가너무오랜만에인사하지?울애기잊어서그런거아냐ㅡ그동안울애기한테쓴편지정리하느라구.이제이곳에쓰지않구엄마노트에직접쓰려구ㅡ한꺼번에몇개씩옮겨적으려니손도아프고그러네.낼은집을보러온다는구나ㅡ결국이곳을떠나게됐단다.잘한결정이구다잘돼겠지?울애기가하늘나라에서지켜봐주고있으니ㅡ이곳에계속있으나다른곳으로가나울애기없는건마찬가지구..가슴에늘돌덩이가하나있는것처럼마이무겁네..엄마가어딜가던울애기늘엄마랑함께할꺼지?비록몸은떨어져있지만..내딸보고싶네ㅡ그조그만몸으로큰산처럼엄마를지켜줬는데..제리야,편히잘지내고있지?그리운내딸.제리이제코자야겠네ㅡ엄마도오늘은일찍자야겠다.아가편히잘자구,사랑해ㅡ